pillar of confidence - 3 saf tpt bn...

there's so much to say.. too much... too much emotions to let out... too much ironies to face... how should i start... i'll talk bout 2004 soon...

but now, lemme say a few words bout the humanitarian mission... we all have this intrinsic human nature in us, which is love... the images of dead bodies and staggling victims are simply so real... it's so near, yet so far... it just feels so surreal... we have been too sheltered to get the real impact... that's why i wanna go for the mission, i believe sean and ron would agree with me that it's not just the participation, but rather it may change ur perspective towards life when u experience ground zero situation... i couldn't help it but felt very weird when i was preparing the nominal roll for those ppl who were activated from my unit... it felt suddenly for a moment that the things which i'm doing has a purpose, has a cause... it's no more wayang games, it's real! real time operation... well, bout 70% of my unit (although my unit is very small) has been activated for this humanitarian mission to indonesia and india... sigh, hq coy was also activiated too but it's only for combat fit ppl... some combat fit ppl didn't wanna go, i hope that it's poss for us to replace them... but on the other hand, there're also risk involve... threat of terrorist kidnapping us, chance of snapping after seeing so many dead bodies, the strike of another tsunami... *touchwood* i guess my parents would be very worried too... i was making phone calls to the next of kin of some of the stc guys, and most parents were kindda worried bout their sons... they kept asking qns like how long will the deployment be, wat are the dangers, will their son be infected with disease, where will they sleep or eat, and many other qns... well, i was trying to reassure them and telling them that they should be proud of their sons for being part of this charitable effort...

the feeling of the entire episode is slowy sinking into me as i occupied myself with the ops stuff today... i dun really feel sad but rather i feel useless... i guess the only and best thing i can do now is to offer my prayers... there some things that are unavoidable... maybe it's really revelation unfolding itself... the end is soon...

may the air, sea and amphibious guys have a safe trip... god bless...

"pillar of confidence" - 3 saf tpt bn

a happy day...

it's a happy sunny day... 14 hours of sleep... sweet dreams... i just feel happy... refreshed soul... renewed spirit...

well, thanx sean for ur sharing... realised that work is dead, if u can't change ur predicament, change ur attitude towards it... that's the only way to be happy in a times and place where you do not have a choice... so i decided to come to work with a positive mindset, true enough i felt happier, though i still do the same amount of work... we all have a purpose in wherever we are, no matter how bad our situation, (i'm coming to terms with it) there will always be a lesson learnt, an opportunity to mould you to become a better, stronger person...

here's a prayer for everyone...

"dear lord,
please grant me
the serenity,
to accept the things i cannot change,
the courage,
to change the things i can,
and wisdom,
to know the difference..."

rushed to church for mime rehearsal in the evening... was happy... excited... i feel that it's like a replay or rather a reset from 4 years ago... we're singing the same theme song, i'm acting very similar role, the message is the same... but the style and the settings are different... it feels deja vu but yet it feels new... as though i'm given a new lease of life... this xmas will be the turning point... trust in god that it will be...

joan, thanx for the chalet... i really enjoyed the company of everyone... seems like yesterday where we were all together at the same place... doing the same jiaobinish stuff...

i'm just happy today!!!
hehehehehehe...

tour de singapore

tour de singapore has finally concluded... just the four of us, braving the night and changing weather conditions... nevertheless, we completed this feat of conquering the eastern part of singapore... well, i really gotta apologise to you guys, cuz i misread the map, which resulted in us ending up travelling 500m on expressway... upp changi road east merges 500m into tpe and ends at loyang junction... sigh, sorry guys for endangering ur lives... i know sean, ron and mmg will def kill me for this grave error... i'll definitely let everyone approve the route card the next time round... i've calculated the distance (courtesy of streetdirectory.com) which we travelled and here is the breakdown of them...

ecp bike shop - airport taxiway (9575.86m)
airport taxiway - saf ferry terminal (6381.27m)
saf ferry terminal - siglap 7/11 (16275.66m)
siglap 7/11 - katong bp stn (4428.20m)
katong bp stn - geylang lor 9 (2735.87m)
geylang lor 9 - esplanade (5135.71m)
esplanade - indoor stadium (5690.78m)
indoor stadium - ecp bike shop (5728.18m)

total mileage = 55951.53m (56km)

well, there will certainly be another tour de singapore organised in the near future and all are strongly welcome to join us... perhaps a few locations and adventure which we can look into would be exploring the western and southern trials, adventure trails in bt timah hills or macritchie...

apart from the thrill of biking and the magnificent night scenery of our lovely island, the brotherhood spirit in pushing on was great... maybe i was abit high that day that i wanted to complete our journey... but i guess it was cuz u all were around that's why i had the motivation to pia the last part of the journey... i wouldn't have done it if i were alone... anyway, kudos to everyone...

"open arms" by journey was played on the radio just as we entered mac aft completing our journey... what an appropriate song, it's the theme song for umizaru... an inspiring show about brotherhood...


ron powering up with apple pie


bike check


pit stop 1 @ siglap 7/11


油条supper at geylang lor 9


seeking shelter at a bus stop


awe... the singapore skyline

here are some postcards too...

我也很想他

我也很想他 (电影“在世界的中心呼喊爱情”台湾中文主题曲)

那时我们总有好多话 什么事都可以讲
我的爱情比你早 却一直放在心上
后来你们之间的变化 我不想再多说话
经过了相遇和挣扎 我还是无法将他放下
那是多久后的事了 有一天你突然问我
在那个时候 是否也爱着他 我也很想他 我们都一样
在他的身上 曾找到翅膀 只是那时的他
是因为你他开始飞翔 我也很想他 在某个地方
我少了尴尬 你少了肩膀
而夏天还是那么短 思念却很长
还记得 那年我们三个许下的愿望
星星骗了我们 我们却因此上了一课
成长必修的学分 我们都一样

the forgotten is bliss...

i wake up... its slowly disappearing... it's blissful... one day, it'll all be gone... what a nice sleep and dream... you were there... you were also there...


我爱上让我奋不顾身的一个人 我以为
这就是我所追求的世界 然而横冲直撞被误解被骗
是否成人的世界背后 总有残缺 我走在 每天必须面对的分岔路
我怀念 过去单纯美好小幸福 爱总是让人哭 让人觉得不满足
天空很大却看不清楚 好孤独 天黑的时候 我又想起那首歌
突然期待 下起安静的雨


还是害怕夜深人静时总想起你
还是害怕的不经意听见你的消息
然而当爱已经沉淀得太清晰
当拥有已经是失去就勇敢的放弃
还是害怕一个人时就很难忘记
还是害怕突然宁愿当初没有决定
然而当爱最后的出口是分离
我会这么相信 走下去


喜欢听歌 感人的歌 它让我觉得 爱是对的
睡不着 我就醒着 喜欢唱歌 动人的歌
它让我获得一些心得 得不到 我就放掉
不再让日子被打乱了 寂寞很吵 我很安静
情绪很多 我很镇定 因为投入 所以放弃
不愿再被痛醒 固执算不算任性的要求
付出也可能看不到结果 终于你还是选择了放手
用逃避 让感情犯错 承诺算不算任性的要求
人总是不能太容易感动 当爱失去自我失去包容
只想要 从混乱解脱 喜欢唱歌 动人的歌
它让我获得一些心得 得不到 我就放掉
不去触碰到我的需要 喜欢唱歌 动人的歌
它让我觉得爱是对的


爱过你才学会离别 犯过错才学会后悔 哭过后才学会谅解
我会学会 我的世界 失去你拥抱的甜美 我学会珍惜的可贵


把我留在你身边是否就是幸福 两个人的世界你是否就很满足
对我你只有一再的约束 我的痛苦 你不清楚
跟我相爱或许你已摆脱了孤独 到底是你的全部还是你的宠物
我感受不到你爱的温度 如何相处 我不要束缚


这一刻 时间变成行李
越过生命悲喜 陪伴着我前进
因为你 让我看清自己
面对未知的恐惧 脚步更加坚定
放心离开 我我会记得这一刻
那些还飞翔着 不可思议的梦
雨后的天空 会有绚烂的彩虹
像最初相信着 我会找到 自由


最後一场赛跑 他开始踮脚
陌生人的喧闹 一句都听不到
想飞越 他不怕高

an ill ect...

i'm down... lost my battle against the flu bug... but i'll be back in health again tmr for tour de singapore...

feeling betta now, was just too sianz diao just now with some commanders...

time to hit the bed and sleep... tmr will be a long day...

goodnight everyone... *yawnz*

the law and leader...

still feeling high... prolly cuz of the little sleep... the pang sai theory really works...

anyway, let's congratulate mmg for crossing over to ocs... yay, another occifer to be... fortunately, it won't be alpha for him...

we come from many places
all across the land
of many different races
together hand in hand
united we stand
divided we fall
ready to serve our nation's call

therein lies the difference between a good officer and a bad officer... u can have the power, but wat do u do with so much power in your hands?

i think you have a disease, a disease that is so deadly...

you can live in your wonderland, or u can live in your berlin...

seriously, the law is neither black nor white...

seeing case files and preparing court martial cases can be confusing when preparing for the 1st time... many issues are debatable... would u stand up for righteousness? what is righteousness? who determines the serverity of the punishment? what is right? what is wrong? seriously, there is not absolute standard... it makes it feel sick...

you can twist and turn...
you can hide with your flamboyance...
you can wear a mask...
you can play ur game...
we are of no match for u in this field, but do remember that the higher u climb, the greater u fall...
i wouldn't want to join in ur little psycho game, cuz it'll only breed hatred...
i guess the only way to get rid of u will be to work with u...
we'll "glorify" u so much so that ur ego overflows with desires and craves...
we commoners don't mind sacrificing, cuz the truth and good hearted will eventually triumph over the evil... and u will be left alone to suffer in this cold cold world...

do absolute law exist? they do... i believe...

remembering the times...

haven't been blogging for quite a long time... i think msn is kindda addictive, once i start chatting, i won't blog at all, dun like to multitask by blogging and chatting...

anyway, i really am sorry for not putting up my new blog design, cuz there're still some tech errors... haiz... it'll be up in late dec cuz my friend will be helping me with the codes... haiz, dunno why i still can't solve the codes... so watch my blog soon... i'll prolly put more photos to my new blog...

gosh, time flies... tmr will be the official ending of the A lvls exams last yr... i still remember the time where we played soccer aft our paper, went marche for dinner. went sentosa for cycling on the imme sat... these are just some of the things i recollect and still fondly think about them... well, some of u would prolly have forgotten some of the events, even those very minor details but i remembered... it may or may not be a blessing to be able to remember so many things (though i can remember work stuff)... anyway, just like to thank everyone again cuz everyone would bring back happy memories of my life...

dunno where should i start... maybe i should start from last wed, during the release of psle results.. well, my cousin didn't do very well, but managed to appeal into chs... i was thinking how fast 7 years have past, since i had the horrid exp during the results day... well, though it was such a long time ago, i could somehow identify with my cousin's feeling... the thought somehow led me to think about my sec1 days in chs... it was just carefree days, things were simple like wat justin say... then i went back trg on fri with hc and chs... haha, it was kindda slack, didn't do much... but i guess the trg on that track with spikes on, made me feel as though i was back in chs... it started raining when we wanted to run, the feeling of romancing in the rain was simply great... i was talking with daryl bout our days trg there, how we could exp all those again... but it seems so near, yet so far away and daryl will be j2 next yr liao... sorry jiayi, for isolating her in our chat...

rehearsing for my church mime performance along orchard rd during xmas season... and here are my performance date... haha, do watch it if u happen to drop by orchard, i'll be a lead...

17 dec fri 830-9pm wisma atria
20 dec mon 930-10pm paragon
22 dec wed 930-10pm paragon

i guess most of u wouldn't have watched my church performance in 2000, where i acted as a spastic little kid 小皮蛋... haha, i was really act cute then, but this time round, i'm back with more act cute, or maybe ect actions... 4 yrs apart, same idea but diff exp and feeling... the endless nights of rehearsing with mingyao, jiamun and recording the theme song 圣诞的意义... those were happy and exciting times, though it was very bz... well, it's really god's blessing to see how everyone devp over the years... it's also a blessing for me, knowing the purpose to go through all the experiences in life and how amazing it is to have everyone in my life... was hoping someone could see the light 4 years ago, but i guess it'll take a lifetime... anyway, i like dec, cuz it's hols, there seems to be an interesting feeling bout dec, i feel happy... time to make n buy xmas pres soon, dunno if i have time this year... haha...

yay, went karaoke today, was happy singing all the old songs and esp stefie's songs!!! but too bad there weren't any songs from her new album... shall go another time one of these days... i can't sing most of the songs, cuz of my range... shall work on those songs which i can sing... hmm, thinking bout songs, these are some of the memoriable songs which remind me of events and ppl...

black eyed pea - where is the love : class dinners at nydc wheelock
avril lavigne - skater boy : guowei
kylie : joan
eason - k ge zhi wang : joel
stef - yu jian, the moment : hc lib studying rm, mugging for prelims
bsb - i want it that way : 2j
mambo no5 : kelv
beegees - staying alive : class dance during hc orientation
faith hill - there u'll be : sec4 nats
evelyn tan - xin lian xin : sec2 nats
savage gdn : times i spent in aust

i think the list can go on and on, that's why i like listening to my database of music cuz i can think about friends and events that happ... songs are like database memories to me...

help... singapore has been almost fully explored... how should i excite myself with moving around this tiny island home...

well, working life is really bz, everyday just zoom past very fast, in no time, i'll ord... it's good that time flies so that i can get out of this place soon, but when time flies, i'll hold on to even more things, cuz i can't let memories go...

the need for speed...

(BMW Z4)
my love... sleek, stylish...


(Audi TT)
my future... advant garde...


(Mazda RX-8)
my dream... attraction...


my top 3 cars list... if i ever get to drive them...

站在最顶端上 却失去光
曾留下的浪迹 我无法想像

一个人的勇敢 能和谁分享
喜悦後的悲伤 在没人的地方
深呼吸继续往上

我知道 我知道 也许明天会更好
对天空大声咆哮 答案我却听不到

我知道 也知道 心里的恐惧有时多过坚强
有你我不再难熬 也不再寻找

最後一场赛跑 他开始踮脚
陌生人的喧闹 一句都听不到
想飞越 他不怕高

sth transcending over me...

feeling weird...
really weird...
it's overpowering...

anyway, i'll miss my dear sunny... it's been 3 years since i had it... though it's only a car, but dunno why i feel sad that i'm changing car... but i guess if u spend time with sth long enough, you'll devp feelings for it...

slacking day...

joorasick puk in the morn... wertz, this course lect was sooo ect... kept talking bout joorasick puk and the dinosaurs and compared them to the chief clerks... kept harping on the fact that making babies is very impt... wertz... he spent like 10mins asking ppl what they understood by "below 7 years old"... surprisingly, most reg said it meant 7 years and below... and he condemned them and exclaimed that they should go back to the joo... the joorasick puk...

next, went to eat prata for lunch with jianwei n chief at casuarina... then it was kster at chinatown... sang until i no voice... haha, managed to sing my oldies like 温柔的夜 which stunned everyone cuz i sang such an OLD song... wertz... oh well, wong sang really really well, sounded exactly like eason! joel, gotta buck up man... haha... settled for dinner at sakae... boy, it was a long time since i ate so much, but i can agree that eating too much sakae makes the buffet sick... well, we couldn't finish quite alot of food so we started playing 终极密码 and the loser will hafta finish the plate of food... best! still can't finish food, then we stuck the rice in between the plates... haha... wanted to play generals with kelv and some other ppl but it was too late liao cuz they wanted to play till 3am... so it was home sweet home for me...

hehe, my nov will be quite slack... but come dec, jan, work will pile up again... shall enjoy myeslf while i can...

btw, the new stef cd is quite a worth buy... though some songs sound quite ndp and some sound like her indian songs... haha... been listening to it in car the whole day... remember to support singaporean singers...

shall rush my tuition notes, been slacking too much liao...

大姐 signing off here... wishing all her 小妹s and 姐姐s good luck in their exams!!!

加油 folks...

all the best folks... it's the time of the year again... can't believe it that tmr marks the one year anniversary of the start of A levels... this is really fast!!! anyway, to sisters in uni, good luck for ur exams...

another quad of bushism...

well, bush has won... though i prefer kerry to win, but i guess it might be more practical for bush to win... since he started the mess, he has to end it... well, just hope that he'll make more sensible decisions this time round...

the return of the sun...

her long awaited album is finally going to be out tmr... can't wait to get it... yeah... hopefully, there'll be more nice songs...

anomaly...

100111001111101101011010110010111010011

imperfect legs...

i promise the day i wake up, i will soar...
i'll never lose my legs, for it is them that give me strength and hope...
the journey continues...

Because you loved me...

For all those times you stood by me
For all the truth that you made me see
For all the joy you brought to my life
For all the wrongs that you made right
For every dream you made come true
For all the love I found in you
I'll be forever thankful,
BabyYou're the one who held me up
And never let me fall
You're the one who saw me through
Through it all

Chorus: You were my strength when I was weak
You were my voice when I couldn't speak
You were my eyes when I couldn't see
You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't see
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am because you loved me

You gave me wings and made me fly
You touched my hand, I could touch the sky
I lost my faith, You gave it back to me
You said no star was out of reach
You stood by me and I stood tall
I had your love I had it all
I'm greatful for each day you gave me
Maybe I don't know that much
But I know this much is true
I was blessed because I was loved by you

Chorus

You were always there for me
The tender wind that carried me
A light in the dark
Shining your love into my life
You've been my inspiration
Through the lies you were the truth
My world is a better place because of you!

(You were my strength when I was weak)-You were my strength!
(My voice when I couldn't speak)-Oh when I couldn't speak!
(You were my eyes when I couldn't see)You saw the best there was in me
Lifted me up when I couldn't reach
You gave me faith cause you believed
I'm everything I am...

Because you loved me...

thank you~

street directory database

went nus on fri... played tennis for the whole aftnoon... boy, it was real tiring man... haha, anyway sarah brought me ard her arch studio and bumped into pin jie who futher enlightened me bout his adventures in arch, how he battled uncle zhou and the Z monster... well, it's kindda interesting the way the studios are structured. one studio consist bout 10 tables and they cluster in a group, in a very cozy fashion, like our hc class benches... well, it's quite good cuz can foster interactions btwn ppl and it'll be really fun if ur studio ppl are a bunch of jiaobins... pin jie showed me a number of his works, which was quite zai, esp his sketch of moses... haha, arch is unlike other facs which have quizzes and test regularly... arch is mainly on proj, instead of exams... this rox man, reminds me of my chinese high days, where i hated mugging and immersed myself in proj which i enjoyed... goooood, at least i can convince myself that i didn't make a wrong choice, arch seems like what i'll like to do and enjoy... of cuz, pj also said that as an arch student, u gotta 看得开 cuz u can be very hardworking and put in lotsa effort in your work but in the end you still can't score cuz the prof buay song ur works or maybe just buay song u... well, there's nothing you can do... being lousy in results doesn't mean that you're not a good designer... sigh, but in singapore, result is still "everything"... oh well, no way to change ppl's mindset that being an arch has no future... well, this is my path, there will be a future if you believe in it...

while it is unlikely that there will be a future, it is possible at the same time that there will be a future...

hmm, wat xy say is kindda true that i shouldn't run ard in nus so much, if not there won't be 新鲜感 when i come in 2 years later, but guess wat, i've stored nus and ntu maps in my database, muahuahahah... actually, i think i've explore more than 60% of spore, almost all the housing estates, except sengkang... as for private estates, the bt timah and western area should be all done... soon, i shall try to source for short cuts... but the think about knowing too much bout spore is that i'll feel kindda sianz driving liao, cuz there no where to explore... i've explored from neo tiew road in lim chu kang to telok paku road in changi... yay~ the 24hrs street directory hotline will be fully functional soon, when i've finish updating all my patches... maybe i can provide value added services like providing directions for bt timah trail or safti live range... as for now, tips for travelling will be updated in future posts...

but the thing is that once after 12am, i tend to "holland" and take the longer route... as u can see, the system maybe unstable at times too...

y = e^infinity ~ experience life

our age is increasing at an exponential rate...

let age be e, let pain be y...

y = e^infinity

as we grow older, we feel sadder even though materially we have more... the material can't satisfy our souls... we're gonna hit the big 2 soon... as times go by, we'll cont to hold on to some part of our past cuz that past has touched your life forever, no matter how u move on, it can't be taken away from you... to >> tootsie loh, coolsudzai forever, it'll never be lost...

万事都是虚空，若我们看破红尘，也许会找到快乐，永恒的快乐和幸福。
这份幸福不是：钱，权势，荣耀，性，恋爱。 而是生命。生命是要付出，要贡献，要牺牲，这样才明白生命地真谛，真正的价值。

experience life... u dun need $ to experience life... though having $$ easiest way to experience life... there're other ways to experience life... life will be an experience if u live it alternatively, not conforming to the world... be a monk or a missionary... be a UN aid worker in some ulu countries... but maybe or most probably in the end, we still choose the $ way...

wat's the diff btwn a beggar and a millionare? NOTHING...
you still live and die in a diff way... one will die of hunger, the other will die of eating too much... who experienced life? both, just that they experience types of life...

chinese medicine...

chinese medicine... no more chinese medicine...

moment of eternity...

embrace the moment... for it'll be a moment of eternity...
finally knowing sth that's joyous and happy... i'm happy for you :)

:) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :) :)


well, went back to somewhere familiar this morn... tango wing seems the same but the ppl aren't there... realised that the honour roll is dominated by my platoon and my section was really qiang... they say that you never know how much u miss and love something or someone when u lose it, it's really true... ever since our platoon split, there was a sense of sadness, even seeing awsm (who gives extras and mocks alot at ppl) made them so elated in brunei... amazing how 4mths of togetherness can bond ppl together...

well, i'm really blessed to have great ppl around me... you may not be someone great in the worldly eyes, but to me you are the greatest...

was watching our class video again today, showed my friend too... felt alot bout it, though my friend was quite stone... guess the video will only be appreciated by all jiaobins...

even though we're far apart, our hearts will be as one...

tango one lives on...

just came back from my bbq with tango one... it was kindda a small gathering of bout 10ppl... consisted of mainly the infantry and arty guys... they shared bout their interesting encounters... for the infantry guys, they just came back from taiwan, what an interesting trip... 2 weeks of super doper tough training, minimal sleep, bashing through virgin grasslands and walking up and down the hill, or maybe a small mountain... hung yi miraculously met 10 ninja vans along the way... well, ninja vans are those vans that sell food to saf soldiers who are distressed w/o food, theoretically, it's illegal to buy food from these ninja vans, but as usual, practicing the 8th core value... the recreation aft their missions was fun... staring incidents in taipei night market aft telling the hawkers that they were sporeans... thrilling theme park rides, they went to 4 theme parks in 3 days... met persistent hookers and pimps on the streets... bump into some celebs... well, it their trip to taiwan really sounded cool... as usual, our dear mr see is as extra as ever... sigh... as for the arty guys, they mug like siao daily and have tons of test... very much like studying for a levels maths and phys... if you fail ur test, ur weekend will be burnt cuz u gotta study for retest... u fail a few times and u'll ooc... well, it's great to hear bout their interesting life, which i'll never get to experience... they agree that they don;t feel at ease with their current group of cadet mates cuz their heart is still in tango one... it's sad, cuz we were so united as a platoon, everyone misses those days, where we had turnouts together, casavec together, knit together, do stupid stuff together... though, it's been like 4mths since i parted with them but i still keep fond memories... i miss the days of chionging with them... it's a sense of bonding and brotherhood... tango one will be a milestone, a chapter of my life stored in my memory... 3 more months to 22 jan... all the way guys... ningyan, get ur soh n do tango one proud... i'm waiting to salute you guys...

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not running anymore...

tired of racing... i can't... no, i CAN... do i want to? will i want to?
maybe what dickson say is true... take it easy...

admiration...

denial...

acceptance...

busy sunday, lazy monday...

finished 21km in 1hr 50min 12secs at ahm yest... it was really a refreshing run... broke my pb 4 years ago by 22mins... could have done a 1hr 40min but though my heart and mind wanted to, my legs just couldn't move... i ran an avg of 4mins 45secs per km for the first 16km and as i past the u turn point at 10.5km mark, my legs felt really light and i ran at an even faster pace... by 16km, the time was 1hr 15mins, which meant that if i cont at that pace, i can complete in 1hr 40mins... but sadly, my legs became bricks and i was dragging them every step i took... the most ardous journey was the last 3km, running past mmg hse and the esplanade park... fortunately, met friends on the way like yew song and monda, and seeing them gave me the determination to push on... well, i met my target which i set for myself b4 the run though it could have been betta... i'll be back next year...

running the 21km is great, a refreshing experience, a time to discover yourself, your limits... esp when u run until your legs are aching, cramping, would you give up? if you carry on, what is your driving force? i felt the worst at the 18km mark, but it's not the time to give up when it's so close to the end... once a runner, always a runner... think the only i can be myself and be strong in it is running... emotions of 喜怒哀乐 can be experienced... you feel like crying when u just can't take it anymore, but u just gotta hold on to it and carry on... for those who watched the women's marathon, paula redcliffe brokedown at the 30 sth km mark cuz she couldn't take it, prolly it was the intense pressure to perform or maybe her legs were giving up on her... she tried to carry on again, but her legs just couldn't move... it was quite an emotional scene... later on in the 10km race, she dropped out halfway too... but holding on isn't easy, not many can hold on... prolly the best example of someone who held on all the way was terry fox who ran for 143days before he passed away... his spirit is worth emulating... instead of blessing this cancer paitient, we were in fact blessed by him... well, there are lotsa lessons to learn from running...

flight endurance speed strength

haha, slacking at home now... i'm really immobile, can't walk properly, my joints are all very pain, esp my right feet, the arthritis condition is acting on me... but it's normal aft running such long dists, the last time i attempted the marathon 4 yrs ago, i couldn't walk for 3 days... well, it's been a long time since i had the opportunity to slack the whole day at home, maybe since last year's sars period... enjoying my cna progs and going to cook lunch later... haha, it's been a long time since i've cooked, haven't been cooking ever since i enlisted... feeling up my ucas application later... should i go if i can go? but something's holding me back...

touched by an angel...

Spend all your time waiting for that second chance
For the break that will make it OK
There's always some reason to feel not good enough
And it's hard at the end of the day
I need some distraction or a beautiful release
Memories seep from my veins
Let me be empty and weightless and maybe
I'll find some peace tonight

In the arms of the Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent revelrie
You're in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here

So tired of the straight line, and everywhere you turn
There's vultures and thieves at your back
The storm keeps on twisting, you keep on building the lies
That you make up for all that you lack
It don't make no difference, escaping one last time
It's easier to believe
In this sweet madness, oh this glorious sadness
That brings me to my knees
In the arms of the Angel far away from here
From this dark, cold hotel room, and the endlessness that you fear
You are pulled from the wreckage of your silent revelrie
In the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here
You're in the arms of the Angel; may you find some comfort here

driving...

slept an avg of 4 hours each night on thurs fri and sat... still feeling very tired... drove like siao on friday and sat... had a very ect friday...

fri
- woke up at 3am
- drove to airport to send chin at 4
- went bfast at geylang at 5
- went to sch at 730 to look for burge
- went back jurong west to fetch kt
- went mindef for despatch at 830
- went kranji for despatch at 10
- went ubi for despatch at 11
- went holland for lunah at 12
- went back to camp at 1pm
- worked till 5
- gave tuition at jurong till 9
- had supper at lao pa sat at 10
- felt boliao and went mt faber with my army friends at 12
- reached home at 230am

total mileage = approx 160km

btw, nearly died when i got home, it's really dangerous to drive when you are feeling so tired...

anyway, talking bout cars, my parents will be changing our sunny into a minivan... it'll prolly be renault kangoo... hehe, the pros of it will be the larger capacity, can fetch more ppl next time... 7 ppl can fit nicely into the "car"... low maintanence, cuz the kangoo uses diesel, it can save us more than half of the cost in maintaning our sunny... cons... it's manual transmission, and the speed limit is 60km/h... but it doesn't really matter cuz i won't speed, esp with this high c.g "car"... this "car" looks kindda funky, not like the traditional vans like the liteace or hiace... in response to joel's calling for ppl to drive continental cars, i will be driving soon hopefully...




renault kangoo express...

lotsa things to say...

sorry guys, my broadband connection has been screwed up for the past few days, can't connect to the net, so couldn't blog... i'll try to remedy it, but for now, using my office's comp to blog...

it has been a very busy and unhealthy week... really busy with work, checking, checking and checking documents for some inspection that's coming up soon... arrrr, didn't exercise at all this week... wanted to run or do weights on tues, but couldn't cuz i worked till very late... wed was worse, wanted to swim but it rained and yest, my uncle cancelled the tennis game cuz the floor was too wet... sigh, next wk is ahm liao, i dun think i can clock enough milage to perform, but hopefully i can achieve my target of 1hr 50mins for 21km, which means it'll be about 5.25mins per km... i'll try to get into my unit's ahm team next yr and i'll be able to train properly... anyway, after ahm will be 2nd link run... it's a 10km run to and fro the 2nd link causeway... anyone interested can let me know... the final running event will be the standard chartered marathon in dec... i'm thinking of completing where i left off 4 years ago... but the reg fee is kindda ex $48 bucks per person... maybe we can form a team of 6 and run the relay, think it'll be more fun...



more and more ppl are leaving for overseas, and it's kindda sad cuz they will only be coming back somewhere next year but oh well... they will still be back...

been hanging around with my unit's friends... it's kindda interesting to hear their point of view bout life and so on... will write more when my net is back...

a tribute to the the troubled world...

today is the 3rd anniversary of sept 11... it set the precedence for future events...

01' afghan war
02' bali bomings
03' operation iraqi freedom
03' mariott hotel boming
04' aussie embassy boming

this is a 1989 song kindda old but i guess it's a recollection of our troubled history, esp the cold war... as we enter a new stage of terror, we should take a look at our troubled past and see how out past sowed the seeds for our present and the future world...

did US light the fire or was she just fighting the fire?

will the fire ever end?

We Didn't Start the Fire - Billy Joel

'49 harry truman, doris day, red china, johnnie ray
South pacific, walter winchell, joe dimaggio

'50 joe mccarthy, richard nixon, studebaker, television
North korea, south korea, marilyn monroe

'51 rosenbergs, h-bomb, sugar ray, panmunjom
Brando, "the king and i" and "the catcher in the rye"

'52 eisenhower, vaccine, england's got a new queen
Marciano, liberace, santayana goodbye

Chorus
We didn't start the fire
It was always burning
Since the world's been turning
We didn't start the fire
No we didn't light it
But we tried to fight it

'53 joseph stalin, malenkov, nasser and prokofiev
Rockefeller, campanella, communist bloc

'54 roy cohn, juan peron, toscanini, dacron
Dien bien phu falls, "rock around the clock"

'55 einstein, james dean, brooklyn's got a winning team
Davy crockett, peter pan, elvis presley, disneyland

'56 bardot, budapest, alabama, krushchev
Princess grace, "peyton place", trouble in the suez

Chorus

'57 little rock, pasternak, mickey mantle, kerouac
Sputnik, chou en-lai, "bridge on the river kwai"

'58 lebanon, charles de gaulle, california baseball
Starkweather, homicide, children of thalidomide

'59 buddy holly, "ben hur", space monkey, mafia
Hula hoops, castro, edsel is a no-go

'60 u-2, syngman rhee, payola and kennedy
Chubby checker, "psycho", belgians in the congo

Chorus

'61 hemingway, eichmann, "stranger in a strange land"
Dylan, berlin, bay of pigs invasion

'62 "lawrence of arabia", british beatlemania
Ole miss, john glenn, liston beats patterson

'63 pope paul, malcolm x, british politician sex
Jfk, blown away, what else do i have to say

Chorus

'64 - '89 birth control, ho chi minh, richard nixon back again
Moonshot, woodstock, watergate, punk rock
Begin, reagan, palestine, terror on the airline
Ayatollah's in iran, russians in afghanistan
"wheel of fortune", sally ride, heavy metal, suicide
Foreign debts, homeless vets, aids, crack, bernie goetz
Hypodermics on the shores, china's under martial law
Rock and roller cola wars, i can't take it anymore

Chorus

We didn't start the fire
But when we are gone
Will it still burn on, and on, and on, and on...

"would you beg with me if i'm penniless?"

a trip to garfield land and a visit to whore #9...

been driving around quite alot lately, tried different shopping centre's carpark, getting used to the sharp turns and small opening spaces... anyway, last nite was the 1st time i didn't have my parents as my v com... drove to jurong point to watch garfield with my cousins... theodric, denise and jonathan... it's also my 1st time, bringing those 2 small kids out for a movie alone without my aunts and uncles, of cuz theodric helped with the "babysitting" too... it was a good show to watch as a family...

then 2nd part of the night activity... having supper with yaolu and paying a visit to whore (hall) 9... wow, the hall activities are really vibrant even at 1am, the night never ends... well, nus halls don't seem to vibrant though, esp with some fat warden walking around... stayed at his room and talked till quite late b4 going home... even as i was going home at 130, there were still ppl jogging and couples showing their affection in the middle of the road, indifferent about the traffic... cool, i might just join yaolu for a jog at night...

ARTICLE X :: THE TRAGEDY OF BEING AN ATHLETE

CONFIDENTIAL

the following cases are sensitive and should not be circulated...

:: case 1 ::
they have this inherent perception that training = studying... the more u study, you'll be able to score... but no way man, track isn't like that... you can run 10.6 on a good day and a 10.9 on a bad day... but it doesn't warrant a right to scrap someone's scholarship after sponsoring his 1st year, leaving this helpless chap who could have easily gotten any other scholarship with his academic abilities, in the lurch and slamming him through the media...

:: case 2 ::
the media doesn't help an athlete much... as we can see from the much talked about case of our 'malingering' athlete... i actually believed very much in the papers initially but apparently, they sensationalised the whole issue when i gotta ustnd the whole issue... it was quite brave of him to stand up for his own rights on tv...

:: case 3 ::
they like to throw unwanted athletes aside and take them back when another athlete becomes unwanted and this new unwanted athlete will then be slammed... this was so prevalent if you follow "today in athens"...

:: case 4 ::
mentally torturing athletes before the comp, psychoing them to do well for races... and continue torturing them after delivering thier performance... seriously, why aren't they happy with a bronze medal?

:: case 5 ::
importing china athletes is not a way to improve our performance, given the well know fact that they like to pressurise them like sending them for numerous and countless competitions before the big one... somehow, it's not easy being a china import... firstly, u gotta face critics about their nationality... but most importantly, i definitely won't be suprise if they get deported immediately if they fail to meet up to the expectations...

:: case 6 ::
are they wise? ... X is representing his country A in a competition which is held in country B... but X is training in country C... so wouldn't it be wiser and more cost efficient if X travels from country C to B instead of travelling from C to A then to B??? bear in mind that X has to pay for his own airfare...

CONFIDENTIAL

eternal sunshine of the spotless mind...

isn't it a samsara concept?
things will go in a full circle...

memories and the old...

Memories will only be memories...

I reformatted my computer 3 wks ago, it was infested with spyware. This was my 2nd time reformatting it this year.. Different computers have different amount of hard disk space, 20, 40, 80, 160gb. My hard disk is limited at 40gb, it can only store 40gb worth of data. Once I reformat, all the data will be gone. Similarly, memories will only be memories, they are of the past. U either back it up, store it, or delete it by reformatting it. The more u want to store ur memories, the more it will be infected with viruses. The only way of improving the performance of your comp is to reformat it, delete away all the viruses and preserve your selected data.

When u restore your old data, would you want to edit it? Or would you leave it as a read only format or achieve format or hidden format?

Interestingly, i wonder how does it feel like to lose all my photos, mp3s and data now? These files have been with me since sec1. It would be disastrous if I lose them all. It will also be very agonizing to lose 4gb worth of mp3 downloaded with 56kpbs modem over the years.

I have this set of cds which I treasure a lot cuz it was a birthday present and the songs were painstakingly downloaded with a 56kpbs modem. If I receive another set of cds of songs that were downloaded with broadband, of cuz I would treasure the previous one...

I like old Chinese songs...

These songs have great impact on my life since young. I have grew up listening to them. Who is a better singer? Jay Chou or Eric Moo? Jolin Tsai or Deng Miao Hua? Which is a better group? SHE or Xiao Hu Dui? Which is a better song? Jiu Shi Ai or Ming Tian Hui Geng Hao? Well, to those who are in their 20s and 30s would prefer the former type of songs, while those in their teens will prefer the latter types. there is simply no answer. It’s not possible to say that the past is better than the present or the present is better than the past. This comparison can’t be made, cuz the era is different, the setting and the environment are different. Both generation of songs are equally important in shaping me, my thoughts and my preference. The world will move on, present singers will fade away while new emerging singers will emerge, nothing will stay static. New genre of songs will develop, cover versions of the similar song will be produced. Some people will prefer the cover version, but the original version of the song will always belong to the original singer. Gigi Leung re-sang Theresa Teng’s 我只在乎你, although it’s quite nice, but the song will always be remembered as Theresa Teng’s one. Who will appreciate?

visit chinese garden

just came back from geylang east home for the aged... my unit went to this home for some community service today... it was quite a show put up for practical reasons to get some award... but i guess at the end of the day, it was quite enjoyable for everyone, although we didn't do much to help them... we cleaned the place, and presented some song items... of cuz there were interesting old folks... like this man, uncle foo who's very 'garang' and young at heart... he was so passionate about singing, he sang some 民歌 with gusto, like those old time communist... then there was this other old man who kept saying that he wanted to go swimming on the 12th floor and i didn't unstnd what he meant until he say that he wanted to dive down... and he kept asking us if it was a good idea... wertz... and there was this 95 yr old lady who is still very strong and does exercises everyday... oh my, will i be that strong in future? well, it was enjoyable listening to them, even though it was hard to connect with them some of the time... anyway, i was the photographer so i cldn't be with them for long...

we went to chinese gardens at night to watch the disney lantern displays... today was a special event organised by chinese garden to allow all the old folks home to view the displays... it was really crowded with the old and the young who brought them there... there were fireworks too and it was really beautiful... managed to get some shots of it... i really recommend you guys to visit chinese gardens with your family, it is certainly a good place to spend the mid-autumn evening with your loved ones...


uncle foo - young at heart...


uncle foo - the garang one...


fireworks


pooh display


nemo display

be strong...

had a weird dream last night... a really surreal one... felt as though it was real... maybe it's the subconscious part of me...

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i'm free... i wanna be free... i wanna fly... fly... i've been running alot, running non-stop... it's becoming an addiction now, it feels good to run or does it? maybe it's just the olympics fever... but maybe not... just finished 14 km last sat in 75mins, could have whacked to a 72 mins but my legs were giving way... my knees were hurting and i've a new right foot sole injury... i think it's prolly my arthritis condition acting on me again... gotta use tape to run now... i can't really walk properly these few days but i must run... sing open is this sat, i can't let the safsa 4x4 team down, i can't just excused myself from it, it's kindda irresponsible, although i really feel that alex should take my place, he's much faster than me now... our 4x4 is almost the national team already with 3 national runners, i don't wanna be the black sheep... i went training yest at AFS and did 300 + 100 interval trg (sprint 300 under 45 sec, rest for 15-20sec and sprint the last 100 under 15 secs) boy, it was tiring man, the last time i did it was in sec 3, indeed my headache came back again as usual due to lack of oxygen to my head... it felt terrible while going home, had prob breathing too, cuz of over piaing the 3+1 trg... anyway, had some comments and tips from alfred that my upper body is too gek when i run thus hindering my speed... well, this is a perpetual prob for me and it has been around since i started running, can't really change it... so the solution is to build up more body mass to control my upper body movt (ew... but i dun wanna be too bulky, it'll convert to fats when i don't train next time...) well, my running style really speaks of my character... you can tell a person's character from sports...

i'm an infant once again... i'm learning how to crawl again... i'm no longer the best, i may not reach that level again... i'm plagued by injuries too... what is my drive in keeping me running or jumping? was my dream a dream of the past... am i just clinging on to a dream that will only exist in my dreams... maybe not... 4 years have gone... what's 14km when i've done 31km before... what was the drive back then? i was running with solomon for 22km before my legs gave way, i really wanted to complete the marathon, my heart, my mind were willing but my body is not... why am i torturing myself by running such long dists (21km for ahm) or go for track training... quite many ppl have told me why run 21km when you are already pes C9? why train so hard when u'll increase your chances of getting guard duties cuz the commanders know that you're physically fit? i should just give up, i'm given this opportunity to rest my body with all the weird conditions, i shouldn't punish myself physically... but i just can't 'force' myself to run very very slowly for my ahm trg runs, it's just not me...

the more i run, the more i find myself... running long dists allows you to feel free, a sense of liberty... it helps you forget about work, probs and it energizes you... you'll feel very happy after a run, with all the 'happy' hormones filling your body... the longer the dist, the more tiring it gets, but the happier you get, you'll start smiling despite all the pain and fatigue... there will be some point of time, you really wanna give up, but you really don't wanna give up and once you pass the barrier, you'll feel free, you'll feel like flying... your legs will carry you on and on...

A moment like this
Some people wait a lifetime
f or a moment like this
Some people search forever
for that one special kiss
Oh I can't believe it's happening to me
Some people wait a lifetime
for a moment like this

my dream? or your dream?

it's not over yet, it's never over... hold on to what you believe in... be strong...

goodbye athens, hello beijing...

the olympics is coming to a close... gotta wait another 4 years to catch all the actions again...

this olympics has been quite unpredictable, no more domination by the US, and we see the rise of asians, with china bagging 31 golds and japan 15 golds... US was upset in so many fields, the dream team is no longer around, the brits have crushed the US monopoly of the relays... '

we saw the truimph and downfall of many athletes and we can learn from each of their story...

celebrate humanity... this is the slogan and it has been used since the 2000 olympics...why do we celebrate humanity during olympics? cuz this is the competition that cast aside all differences among ppl... sports bonds ppl, but it can break ppl to in the process... the olympics movement has come a long way...

with it's humble beginnings in 1896, it was slowly inflitrated with other agendas, of which politics played a large part of it... in the 1936 berlin olympics, hitler wanted to use the olympics as a showcase of aryan supremacy but jesse owens 'foiled' his plans... the olympics was further plagued by cold war rivalry in the sixties with memoriable events like hungary venting anger against the USSR in their helsinki water polo match, the controversial USSR basketball victory over USA, the withdrawal of US and USSR from 1980 and 84 olympics respectively... terrorism aggrivated the situation in the 1972 munich olympics and 1996 atlanta olympics... in recent years, poltics has taken a backseat as commercialisation brought in a new category of problems... doping... the 1988 ben johnson's case was the most notorious of all and over the years, we see many olympians being stripped off their medals... but it's glad to know that with the tough clamps on doping, the olympics will be quite a fair one...

in this olympics, we see many heartwarming scenes... north and south korea marching in as one united contingent... let's hope one day they'll compete under one unified country... we see people power in the controversial gymnastics arena... we see veterans like gail devers, merlene ottey, lori-ann muenzer, kelly holmes who never give up their passion for their sport... and some made it, some didn't... but what's admirable is their passion and determination...

olympians are not made overnight, they go through endless tough trainings and countless upsets before they move closer to their dream... of the millions who aspire to be olympians, only a few eventually make it... sometimes the amount of sacrifice is inmeasurable... muscles have to be torn, bones have to be broken before an athlete can truly make the mark... dwight phillips met an accident when he was 15 and the doc told him that he could never walk properly anymore, but today he's the long jump champ. kelly holmes ruptured her archellies, torn her ligament, fracture her leg before she became what she is today... lori-ann was on the brink of bankruptcy, but she persisted on with her training... these are inspirational stories of athletes who overcame all odds... these heartwarming stories will not only inspire other athletes, but also be a blessing to anyone who is trying to find the inspiration to carry on with their career, their life...

beijing 2008, here we come...

love will be our home...

if home is really where the heart is,
then home must be a place,
we all can share.
for even with our differences,
our hearts are much the same.
for where love is we come together there.

wherever there is laughter ringing,
someone smiling,
someone dreaming,
we can live together,
love will be our home.

wherever there are children singing,
where a tender heart is beating,
we can live together there,
love will be our home.

if love our hearts can be a family,
and hope can bring this family face to face.
and even though we may be far apart,
our hearts can be as one,
when love brings us together in one place.

wherever there is laughter ringing,
someone smiling,
someone dreaming,
we can live together,
love will be our home.

where there are words of kindness spoken,
where a vow is never broken,
we can live together there,
love will be our home.

love will, love will be our home.

the greatest last place finish ever...

Mexico City, 1968

Out of the cold darkness he came. John Stephen Akhwari of Tanzania entered at the far end of the stadium, pain hobbling his every step, his leg bloody and bandaged. The winner of the marathon had been declared over an hour earlier. Only a few spectators remained. But the lone runner pressed on.As he crossed the finish line, the small crowd roared out its appreciation. Afterward, a reporter asked the runner why he had not retired from the race, since he had no chance of winning. He seemed confused by the question. Finally, he answered:"My country did not send me to Mexico City to start the race. They sent me to finish."

celebrate humanity...

it has been a saddening afternoon... it was so agonising watching the table tennis semifinals... jia wei lost by a small margin... we were so hopeful of a medal when she led by 3-1, but unfortunately, the comp went the other way for her... it was so close but yet so far... nonetheless, she has given her best shot already and i believe her fighting spirit is really commendable... let's wish her all the best for her 3rd 4th placing match... i hope there won't be a re-enactment of jing jun hong's fate 4 years ago... maybe we're not destined not to get a medal yet... jia you :)

for those ppl who managed to catch a glimpse of seng song's race, u'll know it feels like racing against the world's elites... he did a 10.75 which was slower than his 10.67 timing last sunday at serangoon stdm... he had a very good start and held on for the 1st 50m but faded away aft the 50m mark...

sports is the best way to inculcate patriotism, cuz as a singaporean, we can feel the emotions involved in the match... how many singaporeans actually ended work early to watch susilo's or jia wei's match? how many of them stayed at home specially just to watch the matches? i believe our pm and sm were watching the match intensely too... well, critics can debate among themselves until the cows come home about our athletes not being authentic... but the fact that so many singaporeans supported jing jun hong 4 years ago and jia wei today has proven that it doesn't really matter anymore and i believe their heart is in and with singapore, i dun think they are going for the money cuz the monetary factor will never bring them so far... every singaporean hopes for the day where majulah singapura is played in an olympic medal presentation ceremony... it will be an accomplishment not only by the athlete alone but the whole nation... jia wei will not be alone, 3 million singaporeans will be with her...

however, being an olympian is definitely more than getting a gold medal, getting 1 million dollars, getting another advert contact with big brands or just for publicity sake... it's about realising your purpose, your dream, your passion... it's something that is higher order, something that is intangible... look at athletes like merlene ottey who's 44 yrs this year, she went for 7 olympics but have never won the gold for 100m... i believe that it is this passion in her that made her continue to train even though her prime is long gone...

know your purpose and go for it with passion...

team singapore all the way...

让我欢喜让我忧...

爱到尽头覆水难收 爱悠悠恨悠悠
为何要到无法挽留 才又想起你的温柔
给我关怀为我解忧 为我凭添许多愁
在深夜无尽等候 独自泪流独自忍受

多想说声我真的爱你
多想说声对不起你
你哭着说情缘已尽
难再续 难再续

就请你给我多一点点时间再多一点点问候
不要一切都带走
就请你给我多一点点空间再多一点点温柔
不要让我如此难受

你这样一个女人 让我欢喜让我忧

让我甘心为了你付出我所有...

忙忙忙...

life is getting very busy for everyone... tonnes of stuff to read... just heard from my friend some stuff bout arch... she spent 17hrs drawing for her assignment, sat and sun are all burnt, and the drawing assignments are piling up... on top of that, the readings will come in soon about the ideas and approaches to arch... the readings are so abstract that u won't have any idea what it's all about... wertz ?!?! anyway, just gotta be mentally prepared 2 years later...

well, work is piling up in camp too, beginning to go home later and later, prolly will have to knock off later soon... tonnes of data to check for auditing... and few projects in hand, sigh... time is never enough... but i kindda enjoy it though... i'm a clerk, a designer, an event organiser... hopefully i can work faster and ...

just saw some case files of ppl getting charge, kindda interesting reading the juicy info but sadddening too... hopefully i won't handle any court martial cases, cuz there's lotsa legal stuff to prep... it's really understandable why lawyers are so stressed... too bad, only an officer gets to take part in the hearing, while the clerk will prepare the relavant docs, but of cuz i can always screw the case up...

i'm beginning to see my purpose here... it's definitely betta to be a busy clerk rather than a slack storeman... fortunately, i'm not a clerk in an active unit, if not i'll hafta go outfield with my rifle, papers, stationaries and maybe laptop.. which sux cuz i'll be doing more than a rifleman... there's a sense of accomplishment when i finish my stuff... being a clerk can also train me to be more meticulous in doing things, taking care of the nitty gritty details... it trains u to manage your time wisely... you'll get exposed to lotsa things too, getting contacts, establishing networks, organising events... i can say that at least this 2 years won't be wasted... but hopefully, i won't be burn out... hmm, it's also quite miraculous that i got posted to this unit and shafiq is in my neighbouring unit... this was how i got connections with safsa... kindda lucky though...

susilo won...

kudos to susilo...

what an impressive game with lin dan... it was a great feat for him in defeating the no1 seed... felt so excited watching the match, when your fellow countryman is battling it out on the court... remember the time when jing jun hong made it into the semis 4 years ago, it was a match to be remembered... the whole nation was with her, she was our nation's pride, the person who gave singapore a medal hope... let's hope that susilo can achieve our nation's dream... jia you :)

citius altius fortius...

The Olympic Creed...

"The most important thing in the Olympic Games is not to win but to take part, just as the most important thing in life is not the triumph but the struggle. The essential thing is not to have conquered but to have fought well."

let the games begin...

Thank you PM Goh

“My fellow Singaporeans, my heart will always be with you.”

Aug 12 2004 will go into the pages of singapore history...

4 months on...

today is the end of ST2 for tango wing... i believe that they had an enjoyable 23km route march, with a finale up the 60 deg steep elephant hill... they have come so far, one more term to commissioning... these 4 months have been life changing for them as they get to understand themselves better, their limits, their character... cheerios guys :) well done... i’ll be waiting to salute to you guys... my stay with them is certainly a walk to remember, an integral phase of my life... just had my tango social night last fri... though it was just a normal chinese dinner with presentation and games, kindda boring at times, but it was great catching up with my old friends... what i like to most is the video presentation, which brought back lotsa memories... i feel happy for them, going through all the tough trainings together, but yet i envy them cuz i can’t join them...

to mervyn, yong shan, yanhe, kamal, hung yi, steven and other multimedia comm members, well done... the tango cd is really good, very professionally produced within 3 days... thank you for keeping track all the important memories...

for every hardship, there will be smiles and laughter...

happy birthday mom...

8 Aug was my mom’s birthday, wanted to post this up but my comp screwed up. Well, we had a simple dinner at Swensens. It was a quiet and peaceful affair, just the 3 of us, my dad, my mom and me. It’s been quite sometime since i spent time with my parents during weekends, cuz most of my weekends are spent with friends. Though i enjoyed the presence of my mom and dad, I felt that it was lacking someone in the family, and mom told me if only I could invite someone. 4 would be a better number. being an only child is definitely not good. I can’t and will never experience the living experience with a brother of sister, even though I have lotsa cousins, but the feeling will always be different. Neither will i experience the arguments among siblings, nor experience the love for each other. Prolly, that’s why i’m a very unfeeling person, i can’t express much emotions towards people. if i had siblings, i prolly will understand human dynamics more. i enjoyed going to auntie kim’s house for dinner, to see my cousins and relatives, though i’m too old for their kiddy games, but i love to see them.

i want to settle down...

dear mom, dear dad, thank you very much for all that you have done all these years. well, i seldom buy presents for my parents on their birthday, except on mother’s or father’s day. even then, i just get small pres for them. i do appreciate them a lot, but i can’t say it to them , that’s why i hope through my actions, i can make them happy. Sigh, again... i’m an unfeeling person... somehow, i find it hard to tell them that i appreciate them. it’s much easier doing well in studies and track and make them happy... i believe that it’s better to use actions to show your appreciation rather than words, cuz i dun like to hua1 yan2 qiao2 yu3 and don’t mean what i say. However, it’s kindda late now to realize that simple words of appreciation and concern can actually brighten up a person’s day. but sadly i’m not conversant enough in words to express my feelings. as you can see, i’m kindda verbose. Anyway, just gotta accept who i am, i’ll just honour my parents through my achievements and actions. i’m very thankful that my parents allow me to do whatever i want cuz they trust me in the things is do and i dun face much restrictions or high expectations. Even though my parents don’t say it explicitly, i know they want me to succeed. My dad says that he feels sianz not being able to watch me competing in nationals anymore and i know my parents were disappointed when i downgraded, they want to watch me commission. yu... you’re right... any parent will want to see their son commissioning... sorry, this isn’t possible anymore... haha, maybe afterall i’m not fit to be in there...

life...

i look forward to julys and augusts... these are the most eventful months... july 25, 26 esp are memorable days... 3 years ago was one of the turning pt of my life... 1 year ago on 25 july, a friend's friend passed away and today, my church friend passed away too, cuz of brain tumor... though i wasn't very close to him, but i felt kindda sad when i heard the news in the evening... he was diagnosed with brain tumor at the beginning of this year and he went through surgery and chemotherapy... ever since may, he has been recovering, he started building up his physical strength by walking around his house for 100 rounds everyday, with the aim of being active again... but sadly, his condition suddenly turn for the worse 3 weeks ago, a new tumor had devp and he fought it bravely for his last 3 weeks... his mom passed away 5 years ago due to cancer too and he's the only child... his greatest wish before he left us was that his dad can receive christ one day... i pray that his wish can be fulfilled and that his father will be able to cope with the lost of the 2 closest ppl in his life...

he was a j2 guy from tj, only 18 years old... he has many dreams like us, he loved mountain climbing, he wanted to trek the himalayas... but he didn't live long enough to experience all these... but was it unfair for him? why should such a guy full of potential and vitality be subjected to these kind of disease and why should his life be taken away? whether izzit fair or a pity that he's not ard anymore, is not that impt now, but rather the quality of life that he has spent has been indeed purposeful... maybe leaving this world is betta for him cuz he doesn't have to suffer in pain... the fact that he managed to battle the tumor for all these time, has already displayed his courage and strength in facing adversity, which is far more tougher and critical as compared to our common worries, studies, money, stress... i would say that he has experienced the true essence of life,  while we are in fact very well sheltered...

dear friends, cherish each other, your loved ones... u'll never know when such things will happen, life is really fragile... don't wait till the person is gone, then start regretting bout not cherishing the person enough... life is really short... before u know it, you'll be 50... cherish life, yourself and your loved ones...

"live our lives as though it's the last day of our life so that we can really cherish it..."

broken records...

"records are meant to be broken, and they will be broken eventually..."

 
i was very happy today when i heard that a junior of mine has a high chance of breaking my rec... it stood there for 5 years and it's time for someone to claim it... ang told renjie that his 6.27 rec will last for at least 10 years, but it was broken 6 years later... similarly, i hope my junior can break it this coming monday...

things will come and go, things will never stay the same... the stage is different... nothing is going to last forever... records are just labels...

 

thank you...

dear friends...

thank you for being here... i appreciate it alot... i'll be alright...

where is calvin?

where is calvin?

.. 10%
..... 25%
.......... 50%
................. nil
.. 10%
..... 25%
...... 30%
............................nil 
 

all the way team hwachong...

a boys - rj 94, vj 77, hc 67, ac 63
b boys - chs 135, sji 47
a girls - rj 92, hc 83
b girls - rg 51, ny 50, sn 42
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i'll like to extend my warmest congratulations to 2 of my juniors, i'm very proud of you... fong yi and joo xiang for doing such a great job in b div long jump... 6.64 and 6.33... fong yi's feat is really remarkable... it's only 2cm away from my pb set last year... i  wanted to break the b div rec but failed miserably 3 yrs ago, but fong yi has come close to it and i'm very happy for him... he's a really good jumper and junior... i'm sure he has more potential to release when he comes to a div...
 
the results of b div is more or less settled, chs will win the overall title again... i'm very impressed by the talent in this group of juniors... it's the strongest batch ever, i remember 2 years ago, they had a clean sweep of 237 pts, hehe hopefully they can break the 200pts barrier... but our c div is kindda weak... well, whatever things that go up, must come down... i believe the fate of chs will be likedat too... although i hope that chs is always remain strong, but it's an ardous task to be reigning all the time... esp with the entrance of the sports school... hmm, it's really unsual for chs c div to be unplaced currently, but anyway, there are very little c boys events now...
 
well, i feel what's more impt after all these years is not about winning, but rather the process in striving to win... and the picking up after each failure... what i can see with our hc guys team is the strong will in fighting during comp and trg, which i think my batch lacks in it as compared to my jnrs... i think they are much more knitted together despite the diff trg progs and locations... we were down a few days ago, the upset in long jump, pole vault and so on... but we have risen over these few days... today for the a div triple, wee ming, daryl and jiesong have displayed their potential and their determination, and they came in 3,4,6th... and for shot put, 2,3,5th... it's a good come back even though we're currently 3rd... i'm happy for jenson... after all these years, he has went through many ups and downs... and he didn't perform for his discus... but he has displayed his strong determination, by getting a silver for shot put... it's only attainable through sheer trg and concentration during comp... i'm not sure if it's his pb, but i'm sure that he has given his best in rivaling vicky... jie ren is very commendable for his effort... although he only managed a 7th for 100h, but he was facing a very strong field of competitors... even for cliff who went to volleyball camp back to do high jump... his 1pt is very valuable to the team cuz we lost by 0 pts last year...
 
as for the girls, although they are in 2nd place, but i believe they have a very high chance in winning the title this year... thanx to the ny juniors who are so zai! well, after a few years, the girls team is once again ny dominated... this was the batch who won the c div for 2 consecutive years... well, i have full faith in the girls team man... it has been a great showing for the past 5 days, keep up the good work...
 
we may not have the strongest thrower, fastest runner, swiftest jumper, and we may be very different in many ways, but we have come together, closely knitted together...
 
 
"i run therefore i was,
i jump therefore i am
i throw therefore i will be
the best..."
 
 
all the way team hwachong...

stay out

i saw the mo today with my specialist letter and he gave me 3mths stay out and put me on medical board for perm stay out... yay~

but it doesn't really matter now...

nothing matters...

the winding path...

sigh... i missed it... why did i?

LOVE ~Destiny~

it has been 3-4 years since i last heard this song... it's really nice... here's the english translation of it...

LOVE ~Destiny~
Lyrics: Ayumi Hamasaki
Composer: Tsunku
Arranger: Shingo Kobayashi, Yasuaki Maejima

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Eternity really doesn't exist.
I wonder when I first realized that.
But I'm prouder than anyone else that
the days we spent together weren't lies.

I've lived up to now. Although the length of time is a little different.

Just having met you, just having loved you,
even if we can't share our thoughts... I won't forget you.

Why, even though it hurts so much,
can't I think of anyone but you and I want to be with you?
But I'm used to how I think of even small
things as happy memories.

Even cliches and meaningless words, if they're said between us,
have meaning.

Just having met you, just having loved you,
just having shared our thoughts... from now until forever...

I should think of you as proof that I live without taking my eyes off of truth and reality.

Just having met you, just having loved you,
even if I can never see you again... I won't forget.

paying a visit to DR EVIL...

i just went to endorse my medical letter today and a some interesting facts about the great diff of attitude of the MO in this unit and SAFTI...

apparently, when i asked for stay out, the MO immediately exclaimed "NO!" before i could finish my sentence... when i tried explaining myself, he kept interrupting me by saying no... i told him bout my ankle condition, which doesn't really allow me to climb 4 storys of uneven stairs to the bunk... although i can climb but i'm susceptible to sprains especially when the stairs are in bad condition... the answer the MO gave was just to fu1 yan3 me... "i can't do anything, NO! i can't give you stay out. so what if ur ankle has prob and loose... if u can't climb 4 storys of stairs, ask ur CSM or OC or CO to shift the bunk down to the 1st level... WOW!!! what a "great" idea!!!

*clap*

the 1st level is office... obviously he's just trying to fu1 yan3 me... he tried to end of the conversation by saying that he can't do anything...

it's not that i'm pissed not getting the permission to stay out but the attitude of the MO is questionable... the resounding NO even before i could explain myself, the way he rejected me... i feel that his immediate reply was becuz he feels that i'm another chao geng person... well, it's true that i'm kindda chao geng to get stay out but theoretically my specialist has said that i should avoid climbing of stairs... it's the way the MO puts ppl down that is annoying... he could have rejected my request nicely n not in a hostile tone... anyway, my friend to me that the medic says the MO is just lazy in writing reports...

sigh, i was sitting beside this guy while waiting for my endorsed slip of paper... he had the same ankle problem as me, maybe even worse, and the interesting thing was that he was only given 6mths excuse lower limb but he wasn't downgraded... this is an obvious difference in this MO and the SAFTI's MO... why was i downgraded with only 3mths of excuse lower limb while the other guy wasn't? why is there such a discrepency? maybe it's the mentality that when a man visits the doc, it indicates that he's trying to chao geng but when a cadet or officer visits the doc, it indicates that he's really ill... apparently, the guy who saw the specialist for his ankle, wasn't referred by the medical centre but he went to polyclinic himself and got a referral from the polyclinic... i feel that if i wasn't in ocs and was in this camp, i prolly won't know bout my ankle and heart condition, cuz a normal sprain ankle won't be suspected as a torn ligament problem and a perfectly normal ECG won't be suspected as a biscuspid aortic value problem...

sigh... life is not heaven when you're downgraded... although you'll do admin work but it can be quite stressful when work piles up, even if you ignore the meagre pay... then you'll have guard duty too, stand 2, prowling, turn outs... sounds worse than guard duty in ocs n bmt...apparently, even with my excuse lower limb status, i prolly still have to do guard duty... but thankfully, my unit is not that bad already... i heard that the pes C clerk with slip disc condition still have to be in full battle order during exercises and have to do road march even with ex lower limb status...

to brotherhood... don't be too sad that you're doing all the shitty stuff or your superiors are unreasonable cuz imagine if you're downgraded with a pay cut and together with condition, you still have to do all the shitty stuff, which is no diff from being a combat fit soldier, you'll prolly feel more miserable...

Osteoarthritis

Osteoarthritis develops as we age and is often called "wear-and-tear" arthritis. Over the years, the thin covering (cartilage) on the ends of bones becomes worn and frayed. This results in inflammation, swelling, and pain in the joint. An injury to a joint, even if treated properly, can cause osteoarthritis to develop in the future. This is often referred to as traumatic arthritis. It may develop months or years after a severe sprain, torn ligament or broken bone.



The foot joints most commonly affected by arthritis include:

The ankle - Where the shinbone (tibia) rests on the uppermost bone of the foot (the talus)

The three joints of the hindfoot - Where the bottom of the talus connects to the heel bone (calcaneus); where the talus connects to the inner midfoot bone; and where the heel bone connects to the outer midfoot bone (cuboid)

The midfoot - Where one of the forefoot bones (metatarsals) connects to the smaller midfoot bones (cunieforms)

The great toe - Where the first metatarsal connects to the toe bone (phalange); this is also where bunions usually develop

Symptoms

Symptoms of arthritis of the foot vary, depending on which joint is affected. Common symptoms include pain or tenderness, stiffness or reduced motion, and swelling. Walking may be difficult.

Treatment

Depending on the type, location and severity of your arthritis, there are many types of treatment available. Nonsurgical treatment options include:

-> Taking pain relievers and anti-inflammatory medication to reduce swelling

-> Putting a pad, arch support or other type of insert in your shoe

-> Wearing a custom-made shoe, such as a stiff-soled shoe with a rocker bottom

-> Using an ankle-foot orthosis (AFO)

-> Wearing a brace or using a cane

-> Participating in a program of physical therapy and exercises

-> Controlling your weight or taking nutritional supplements

-> Injecting a dose of steroid medication into the joint

Surgical Options

If your arthritis does not respond to conservative treatment, surgical options are available. Your orthopedic surgeon will discuss the type of surgery best for you, which will depend on the type of arthritis you have, the impact of the disease on your joints, and the location of the arthritis. Sometimes more than one type of surgery will be needed. The primary surgeries performed for arthritis of the foot and ankle are:


Arthroscopic debridement. Arthroscopic surgery may be helpful in the early stages of arthritis. A pencil-sized instrument (arthroscope) with a small lens, a miniature camera and a lighting system is inserted into a joint. This projects three-dimensional images of the joint on a television monitor, enabling the surgeon to look directly inside the joint and identify the trouble. Tiny probes, forceps, knives and shavers can then be used to clean the joint area by removing foreign tissue and bony outgrowths (spurs).

Arthrodesis, or fusion. This surgery eliminates the joint completely by welding the bones together. Pins, plates and screws or rods through the bone are used to hold the bones together until they heal. A bone graft is sometimes needed. Your doctor may be able to use a piece of your own bone, taken from one of the lower leg bones or the hip, for the graft. This surgery is normally quite successful. A very small percentage of patients have problems with wound healing. These complications can be addressed by bracing or additional surgery.

Arthroplasty, or joint replacement. In rare cases, your doctor may recommend replacing the ankle joint with artificial implants. However, total ankle joint replacement is not as advanced or successful as total hip or knee joint replacement. The implant may loosen or fail, resulting in the need for additional surgery.

Bicuspid Aortic Valve

The bicuspid aortic valve is the most common congenital heart defect. It is estimated to exist in 1 to 2 % of the population, predominating in males.



The normal aortic valve, as shown in the drawing, has three leaflets (flaps, cusps) that move flexibly, opening and closing to control the flow of blood into the aorta from the left ventricle of the heart as it beats. When the cusps come together as the valve closes, the shape is that of a trisected circle.

In contrast, a BAV has only two leaflets, also shown in the diagram on the left. It is sometimes described as resembling the mouth of a fish as it opens and closes. Depending on the degree of malformation and associated malfunction, blood flowing through the valve may make an abnormal sound, called a murmur. While some bicuspid aortic valves are silent, the detection of a murmur may be the first indication of abnormality of the aortic valve. Over time a bicuspid valve may lose its ability to open widely, close properly or both.

ez link student pass is INVALID!!! I'M OLD!!!

went ps today with wenz to window shop... oh my, there were lotsa jc students hanging around, esp hc ppl, bump into some 04s62 ppl too... guess they just finished their block test today... well, it's great to see jc stdns around, brings back memories of jc days... but looking at them, makes me feel old... though, it's been 6 mths since jc ended, but it seems quite distant... the past will always be the past, i can never re-live those days... though memories won't fade, but they still belong to the past... sigh...

well, another indication of aging was that when i tried to top up my ez link card, the machine said that it's invalid!!! i can't use my stdn pass to travel anymore, i'm OLD!!! but i shall keep it and get discounts from pool and prince, if i ever get to go there and eat again...

hmm, i'll prolly take leave or off on 28th july to watch nats finals... it'll be at national stadium this year... well, visting national stadium is a benchmark for me to see how much i've aged... i can always remember when i 1st stepped into natl stadium in sec1, i asked myself, how long do i have to wait before i come here again... very soon, a year has past, and i'd ask myself again... so, it was not long that 6 years have past and now i'm going back there as a spectator, not as a competitor... see, i'm aging!!!

i should settle down...

1st day at work...

well, i'm finally went to my new posting today... i'm working in the manpower branch... learning to do clerical stuff, if i'm capable enough, then i'll be promoted to be the asst chief clerk... anyway, the 1st day was kindda boring... the real work will prolly start soon... nothing much today, except for a short induction package conducted by a senior there... he gave me an intro bout my job scope, but it's kindda infomation overload... and he brought me ard the camp...

!!! *gosh* !!!

although the camp wasn't very old, but it reminds me of my primary school, the setting of the cookhouse, the canteen, the mess, looks kindda like my pri sch... and the bunks were *ahem*... i believe they are worse than ron's bunk in sispec... it was classroom sized, shared by 4 ppl, with a 14 inch tv... sponge bed, with a tiny cupboard that measures, 0.5 x 0.5 x 1.5m... the stairs were in quite bad condition too, i nearly sprained my ankle again... conclusion... i wanna stay out!

like what i've said before, ocs is really HEAVEN!!!

well, there are some 302 (gays) around too... ewww... didn't think that the 2 decent looking manly guys were actually gays... fortunately, they're not in my dept... *phew*

anyway, the journey ahead will prolly be tough, not physically but mentally... could feel some politics going on in there... sigh... i dun wanna get caught in it...

final moments in tango...

i'm going to my new unit on monday... 3rd transport batallion, i'm going to be a clerk but it's stay in...

a new path is ahead of me, full of uncertainty... maybe i should get out of my comfort zone in tango...

life in tango is really great, as a cadet and as an ooc... it's really heaven here... inspirational, efficient training... loads of fun time... i'll really miss this big family, like how i miss 62... i will always remember the knitting club of platoon 1, the multimedia comm, spending endless hours producing website and video, the almost daily routine of playing operation flashpoint, the street soccer games, the swimming pool and the hot shower aft the swim, the diving platform, the euro fever...

life is really good here...

anyway, we had a "farewell celebration" for dickson (who's going for med) and me last night by watching the eng-por match... we did some jiaobinish stuff which no one will ever have imagined... we ordered pizza and "sneak" out to the main entrance using a rover to get our pizza... and sneaking it into the wing hq and enjoyed our hot pizza while watching the match...

ARGH!!! couldn't believe beckham CLEARED that shot... maybe he was still in his defensive mode... anyway, it's a pity that england got knocked out...


been taking lotsa pics today, with everyone...

sadz...
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sorry guys, i'm leaving... will miss you guys...

a tribute to tango...

it's been almost a month since i got ooc... things hasn't changed much over these 3 weeks in tango... prolly trg got tougher... they just had their 7-11 (run soc 7 times) on tues... upcoming events include demo livefiring on this coming mon and 3 fieldcamps back to back starting in july to aug... hopefully i get posted out soon, so that i can watch nationals... well, there're too many things to say, how should i express everything out here... oh well, maybe i should go bit by bit... lemme start with my instructors 1st...

within this month, there are many changes to our instrcutors...
:: our dear PC LTA subhas went on course
:: PC3 CPT george left to become 2 i/c in an arty batallion and he's getting married...
:: LTA lawrence is clearing leave now cuz of the new ord date thingee...

tango instructors are really nice, but maybe abit too nice, not to tekan us as jialat as delta... maybe if we (or should i say the cadets in future) go to active units in future, they will suffer (as commented by many ex-cadets)... but anyway, my stay in tango has been a very memoriable and enriching one... each of the instructor has inspired me and taught me some impt life lesson...

well, LTA jonathan and rick are zany and ect instructors who won't fail to make you laugh with their funny faces and ect actions... LTA subhas has somehow inspired me to be tougher and he helped our platoon to gel really well together during the 1st month of TST... i will never forget his stories about his UN missions, his "nasi lemak from heaven", "chicken rice from commado thai kids" and of cuz his famous quotations...

"when you're lost, cold and hungry... who do you turn to? NOBODY except your BUDDY!!!"
-- confidence jump

"you will bond like brothers, burn like joss sticks..."
-- before leadership fieldcamp

"this (one cap full of water) is for my country, i will spill blood and die for her... this is for my family and friends, whom i love and miss very much... this is for myself, for without me, there's nothing..."
-- junior bar presentation

well, of cuz apart from our pc, LTA lawrence is really a professional instructor, who doesn't show signs of ording for the past month, he's alws strict and has high demands, really admire him for his professionalism... then there's the "ah beng" apc LTA kelvin who tells us lotsa practical life issues and stories... my section instructor LTA gerald, the mr nice guy, who's gentile and forgiving... well, as for my wing sm, a grouchy old man who laughs like a tyrant... and his favourite phrase...

"don't show me your sad face when i give u plus plus.."

* plus plus = extra duties

okie, that's all about my instructors... oh oh, i nearly forgot about my wing comd... he's an arty LTC, who's very niao3 intellegently... he reminds me of justin...

now, lemme move on to my platoon mates... tango ONE ROX!!!

this is the most disciplined and garang platoon in a slack wing... we get turnouts when other platoons are slacking in the bunk... we have a pc who's a RANGER!!! so we're called the ranger platoon... anyway, even though we're quite tough compared to other platoon, but i'm proud to be in tango one, we have pride in the things we go through... during the time in tango, i have indeed learnt lotsa important lessons in life and i've discovered myself and unstand ppl more... through the tough times, i know who are my true friends and whether i'm still able to be myself...

what i've discovered so far is that the more selfish i get by not contributing so much to the platoon, the more i don't enjoy the training and the more u don't feel like going through the course... however, if i more altruistic, more helpful, i will somehow enjoy the training more cuz there is the joy in suffering with everyone, sacrificing oneself... and the time in ocs is much happier... this was what i learnt through the turnouts and fieldcamp...

section TWO is a unique section... the 4 HC guys (me, aaron, wei liang, zhichao) who were in platoon ONE, were in section TWO, it's really very fortunate... and there were 2 other CHS guys (mervyn, licheng)... my section is really warm, cozy and zai... doing the best in tests and we have the most number of gold for ippt... the platoon best comes from my section (ningyan) but what's more impt is that we can clique very well together... my buddy fredrick is very gentle and nice... his bag is always filled with chocolate and chocolate chips... whatever brand u name, he'll have it... well, it's really blessed to have such a good buddy, a good section, a good platoon and a good wing...

i remembered that i dreaded my 1st 2 weeks in ocs, the regimentation, the crazy standards of fieldpack inspection were a total cultural shock to me... but now, i begin to miss tango as a cadet... i wanna be part of the platoon but i can't... sigh... prolly, the only thing that can keep me together with the wing is through making videos which will bring back the memories... sadz... i miss tango...

i'm back

hey guys, i'm back!!!

but i dun really like this blog design, so i'll prolly change it soon but shall stick to this for the moment...