first blog after a long time...

i'm home... totally tired from running 15km. well, it's kindda a torturous way to siam work and get off, esp with the streaks of death in saf, i kindda fear my own safety while running. but then again, if i dun run, how else can i get away from the depressing workplace.

i was looking at the national schs track results and it seems that its rj's year again... 7.02m! finally there's someone breaking the 7m barrier. well, it seems that our sporting scene is picking up again after being dormant for years, or maybe decades. there is this twilight zone feeling about nationals... after piaing 6 years for the overall title, the end. "the chinese high school" or "hwa chong junior college" is just another name on the overall champ list. the name on the records list will only be just another name. who remembers (or who knows) the record holder for c div high jump? well, no one, personally i do not know who that person is anyway. life goes on. it's all but temporial. but why do we treasure it so much in the 1st place?

as a champion of *** (pui!! stupid award), i should say something about the organisation. the org had some prob all the while. if anyone were to join me for the gathering, there is def some big prob with it. the functions for us were too grand. they used tear resistant high quality stickers for our nametags. they had fabulous food. we had special "nannies" to take care of us. this is even betta, there were overseas leadership camps for us, to US somemore (but too bad, they cancelled it for my year)... well of cuz from a materialistic point of view, this org is def too good to be true... "where is the money?" well, are we still going to give? crap... maybe i'll be ostracised by having connections with the org...

rainy day... jaded...

btw, combat ration tastes good as lunch...