why am i talking to a bunch of uninspired and sianz ppl? i'm feeling down again... maybe it's the time of the month again... (oopz...) haiz, why get involved with so many things? i'm capable of handling them but somehow i dun feel like handling... maybe i'm getting jaded... i dread going to the office though i try to make myself feel purposeful... XGS will be quite a good learning experience, and the taiwan trip will prolly be a good breather from singapore...

it's hard to give up something which it has been part of you for so long, even though it's slowly fading away... 我和我追逐的梦... my legs will carry me on but there's no clear purpose to train, no more nationals, no more team look forward to... shattered dreams... i hope the day when i give up the idea of running n jumping will never come...

shucks, stop putting up a strong front...